Targets and indicators
Yesterday I transferred a 3 year old boy from the General Hospital to the MSF hospital (Bon Marché) – although most of the paediatric care now takes place at the general hospital, we have retained Intensive Care at Bon Marché for the time being. The boy was gasping, and had that familiar terrified stare that one sees in cases of severe anaemia which are starting to decompensate. (Malaria tends to destroy the red blood cells, resulting in anaemia; up until a certain point the body adapts to this loss by diminishing its level of activity, but there is a critical threshold beyond which the body cannot survive without supplementary oxygen and a blood transfusion). I sat opposite the mother, whose tired expressionless face suggested that she was prepared for the worst. But within 5 minutes the boy was on oxygen, and that night, following a transfusion, he was sitting up and eating his porridge.
Now, we must acknowledge that under current circumstances this child would not have survived had he stayed at the general hospital. Yet such deaths are avoidable, with the use of commonly available tools and medications. We cannot think about leaving until the hospital has the capacity to manage cases like this. But shouldn’t we be focusing more on the health centres, such that they are able to treat the malaria early enough to prevent it getting to this stage? And if we go one step further…what of the (unknown) number of families who cannot afford care at the health centres – can we conceive of leaving in the knowledge that huge numbers of people have no access to care at all? What of the charter of MSF – what population can be more in distress than a population that has no access to healthcare?
Of course, we have to accept the fact that our interventions will never reach everyone. Particularly at these transitional phases, where we are moving from a model of care that prioritises accessibility, to a model that prioritises sustainability. We have to choose indicators and set targets that at first may seem modest, but ultimately are realistic. When we achieve these targets we will know that we are ready to pull out. But all of this is difficult to consider when one is faced with a child in extremis.
Sometimes I think that such doubts are a sign of fatigue – when we are full of energy, we can remain convinced that the strategy will work, and we retain a philosophical outlook in the face of individual losses. And yet we must not stop voicing these doubts, because at some level it is never acceptable that children (that anyone) should die like this; and we must keep expressing this if we want it to change, and if we wish to avoid losing our humanity amongst all the targets and indicators.
August 20th, 2010 at 1:57 pm
words are not enough to express how I feel for you and the current situation. thank you for saving the boy’s life. x
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August 23rd, 2010 at 9:47 am
Keep up the great work! You are doing more than most so try not to get overwhelmed or feel burdened. God is aware of the problems and issues at hand and has a plan! God bless you!
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August 23rd, 2010 at 12:37 pm
It is a disgrace that people anywhere in the world can find healthcare inaccessible because they cannot pay for it. That is the first thing that should be fixed, everywhere. God bless MSF and the work you do.
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August 23rd, 2010 at 1:29 pm
One of the eternal conundrums.
I lost the mental balancing-arm that let me weigh the greater good against every individual case I succeeded or failed with. My own health was wrecked soon after. Not a useful outcome.
The trick, for me, was not keeping my humanity but keeping adequate respect for that balance, in the face of the immediate needs.
Keep that perspective as long as you can. You know you’ll do everything possible for everyone you see. But without that balance, you can’t stay functional. Very best wishes
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August 23rd, 2010 at 3:46 pm
Thank you for giving your time, your skill, your compassion, a piece of your life, to do the things that so many of us are not able to do. Thank you for writing about your experiences so that we can know what it is like. I wish for you and those you love as much happiness as you are giving to the people you help. Thank you.
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August 23rd, 2010 at 4:11 pm
Hi Kiran,
I was thinking to call you and find out what has been happening in your life as we have met last time after return from Niger. Well, apparently it’s no good to call you as you are back to the field again:) I am back to Western life, and, ironically enough to your latest blog, working in Paediatric Intensive Care(Cambridge). I am sure it is very different to your ICU, but I still vividly remember working in Neonatal Intensive Care in Conakry, Guinea, which was probably more like it.
It’s hard at times, and yes, it’s great to have all the targets in mind, but time to time child like you have described just boosts you with new energy, seeing and doing something ‘real’ apart from the talk of sustainability and so on…
One needs not to forget concrete people who benefited from one’s effort, it’s equally rewarding as setting up brilliant system which will be accessible to everyone and last forever…apart from the fact that the latter is very long-distance run.
So – keep the spirit and keep the good work you are surely doing there. I hope to speak to you again somewhere sometimes:)
Miro
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